First of all, I'm so sorry that you're going through this. This sounds like so much to deal with for one person and I'm sorry that it's come to this The first thing you need to know, though, is that this is NOT your fault. You are NOT responsible for what he does or doesn't do, and can't continue in a relationship with him if you're not attracted to him and don't want to be with him I had something similar happen and I told him that even though I loved him, I didn't want a commitment with him at that time. He threatened to end his life all the time and said it was my fault, but I had to come to realize that it wasn't. It was HIM, and what he was feeling. It sounds like your bf needs some serious help, but he needs it from a professional. You can't save him. Write back if you want to talk more. *Melissa*