hi boundboi
you are not responsible for his actions. he is manipulating you into staying attached. if he kills himself, that is his choice. he needs to be institutionalized so that he can keep himself safe. it is not your fault what happens to him. it is due to his own poor choices. not yours. you have the right to be happy. he is holding you hostage. get a restraining order if necessary. his choice to act that way, not yours. if necessary, go to counseling together to go through the disengagement. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome