((((secretgalaxy))))
I am sorry that you feel torn between this dilema of thinking about going to hospital vs is being too late to withdraw from college classes; I really am.
I am always a strong advocate that looking after our mental health is a priority above all others.
I know how hard this is.
It is certainly not easy.
But our mental health comes first.
May you find some peace and comfort with your decision.
Take care.