See, I don't know if I am going to be only in there for a week or 2 this time. I just came out in January and haven't been right since. I just want to be normal. My mom is trying to talk me into staying with her and that she will take care of me and help me sleep, but I just can't sleep. I will not do it. Not in my home. My mind won't let me and I just cannot do it and she doesn't get that. She is scared of losing me, but I am scared of hurting her again... Is this how life is going to be? Forever out of control of my mind?