Told by a therapist that "I am defeated." Society has won. He said my life looks like a nightmare that I can't wake up from. Since I have no ability to make people in real life care about me and I have done everything in my power to make myself the best I need to stop trying and let the other side win. Go hide in a corner and accept defeat. That is what I am doing. That is what the therapist told me and I don't want to be label a non-complaint patient again so I will do what they say to do. If you are non-complaint they have ways to get you complaint - hospital stays, injectable meds, restraint rooms and chairs, water boarding etc. don't want that so I am going to follow their opinions.