Seriously? I've been also meditating on The Wheel of Fortune (reversed).

Say more about the Fool card, because in retrospect, when calmer parts prevail, the recent manic mistakes and losses feel shamefully foolish. Now, of course, I see I wasn't in my right mind. And had I known in advance I could forget myself and act so fecklessly I wouldn't have. We're part of helping the culture better communicate mental lapses, but for now I find I get so frustrated just trying to share that I've stopped talking about it.

This reminds me of a Carol Shield quote from Unless, if I can find it ... found it:

"It happens that I’m going through a period of great unhappiness and loss just now. All my life I’ve heard of people finding themselves in acute pain, bankrupt in spirit and body, but I’ve never understood what they meant. To lose. To have lost. I believe these visitations of darkness lasted only a few minutes or hours and that these saddened people, in between bouts, were occupied, as we all were, with the useful monotony of happiness. But happiness is not what I thought. Happiness is the lucky pane of glass you carry in your head. It takes all your cunning just to hang on to it, and once it’s smashed you have to move into a different sort of life."

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