hi redbadger
it is incredible how much we can mind **** ourselves. the key is using that positive self talk to counter act it over and over. it makes for a busy head but evenutally it becomes automatic. another trick i have learned in a mindfulness technique. i have a door at the front of my brain where the thoughts come in and one at the back where they go out. when unwanted thoughts come in, i notice them for what they are and then they are escorted right on out the back door. i do not give them any energy except to send them on thru out the back door. i do not dwell or become emotionall attached. just send them on thru. this has really helped me get rid of unwanted thoughts. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome