hi morris
it is unfortunate that you had to witness this event. knowing it was a secret and liking this man probably somewhere within you made you feel kind of caught in the middle between your parents. he was a positive experience for you, but somehow you knew it was wrong, so how does a child seek resolution for that?and then any feelings for dad, knowing this secret, the hurt this would cause, causes more jeopardizing feelings for you. you were just put in a very bad place emotionally. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome