The conflict I have is with myself. On one hand my moods make it extremely difficult to even move. I get tired and down and anxious and my entire body aches and what I want to do physically is lie down and stare off into space forever.

On the other hand, in my mind there are things I want to do. I want to write, read, play video games, learn a language, play with my dog, work on my ebay etc etc. but I can't. So this leaves me with a conflict within myself and it causes me anxiety and anger and I can't help my moods though they are a ton better than when I was off meds I still struggle with this.

I want to do things, a lot of things. I can barely put on a tv show or browse the internet because I'm constantly feeling an overwhelming feeling of mixed emotions/torture.