I'm sorry you feel blue, Tongalee. I don't know what happened in your life, but I do know you're a real person, with value and worth. It doesn't matter what happened, it doesn't take away your humanity or your value as a person. It will take time for you to ever come to believe that. Eventhough you feel bad about yourself, all of us out here can see your humanity and kindness. Hang in there. Keep working with your T and soon you'll begin to see it, too.