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Originally Posted by Bill3
Yes it makes sense, somehow feelings got to be intolerable and these are your ways of coping with them.
Aside from food/weight, what is an example of something that you need to have under your control? What bad events (other than intolerable feelings) could happen if you feel out of control (again, aside from food/weight)?
Thanks for writing back to me. I feel pleased and grateful when I hear back from you.
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Thank you for validating that. I feel like I have to have everything in my life under my control - my clothes are color coded and organized my season, I'm very neat, I get paranoid about what people say about me. I had a couple events occur when I was a kid - my mom died after a long illness and a couple other things - that were completely out of my control and were pretty traumatic and then a little over a year ago I got really sick - meningitis, infections in the bones in my spine, skull and discs and abscesses in my spinal cord and brain and had a lot of procedures and surgeries. I was in the hospital a long time and a lot was done to me. I know it was for my benefit, but it was still a traumatic experience. I guess I'm afraid if I let myself get "out of control" something like that will happen again or something will happen to someone I care about. I get that's completely irrational, but I can't seem to control the irrational thought process....