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Old Mar 14, 2015, 05:21 PM
quasicrystalline quasicrystalline is offline
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Honestly, I don't think that this is something anyone in a forum can decide or figure out for you, but if I had to guess... Please keep in mind this is my personal, completely unprofessional opinion. From your other posts and this one, it strikes me as borderline personality disorder. The thing you said that stands out to me is that your mood will dip over something trivial. This is characteristic of BPD. With bipolar, moods often (although not always) happen without regard to our environment. Things could be going wonderful and you're slammed with depression, but with BPD, moods are generally triggered by issues with interpersonal relationships.

If BP is on the table, I would guess 2 for now. It doesn't sound like you're manic symptoms are severe enough to be full blown mania. This doesn't mean they're not troublesome. There's a misconception that hypomania is harmless. People can make destruction decisions during hypomania.

Also, just a note that sleep deprivation can account for psychosis (Even people in the normal population will hallucinate if kept up long enough. That's why it was used as torture in past wars!), so if you're staying up into the early AM, that very well could be the cause of the hallucinations. I get psychosis most often in mixed states when I haven't been sleeping. Sometimes the cause isn't as scary as we think.

7-8 doctors is a lot of doctors to go through in such a short time. I understand that things happen. People move, insurance policies mandate you use a different facility, the provider is (although this should hopefully be rare) downright terrible, etc., but it honestly would be in your best interest to stick with one or at least have all your records forwarded to the new one when you switch. You'll get a more accurate diagnosis that way, and as you've already recognized, you're not a doctor and you can't diagnose yourself. The longer they work with you/the more records they have to review, the better able they will be to serve you.
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Last edited by quasicrystalline; Mar 14, 2015 at 05:38 PM.