Hi nosebleed. I'm unsure of where you are at, really. If you are truly seeking and not being just cynical, that's a good place to be, imo. Of course there is a better place, as you know and wish to find.
I like it that you consider yourself an agnostic, personally. You are leaving it open to find truth.
I know of many that have found God without any indoctrination at all. After finding Him, their search changed from seeking Truth, to seeking more about Him

what they chose afterwards (indoctrination?) was of their choosing?
Have you read Evidence that Demands a Verdict by Josh McDowell? That might be the type of information that you need to make a decision.
But... I truly believe that if you are seeking Whomever it is, that if you pray asking the Supreme Being to show Himself to you, He will. There is nothing magical but something very supernatural about it. God loves. He sent His Son as a sacrifice for the payment of our wrongdoings. All we have to do is accept that as a gift, from Him.
ttyl