Thank you for your replies. I do find myself realising that many of the thoughts I have are nonsense and dismissing them as best I can. I do still find myself wallowing in despair and in turn getting stressed and even passing that on to my partner. She is understanding but I am aware I will push her away unless I can take control. The thing is I doubt it would feel any different with anyone else. I feel that I must combat these feelings for the sake of any future relationship I am in