Gentle hugs(((((((( Christina )))))))))
A child can never be blamed for the abuse that happens to them. We are conditioned and made to believe, by the abuser that we wanted it, we asked for it etc........ but think about it, we had no choice. As a child or young person you wouldn't have been able to say, "Excuse me please, I don't want to do that............" Survival would have meant doing what ever it was in order to survive.
Another way to look at it is......................if a child came up to you and told you that they had been abused. Would you blame the child? No, you wouldn't, so please be gentle with yourself.
I'm sorry this has happened to you, I hope you can find a T soon to help you feel better about it all.
Take care.
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