I can't think of any reason I would be willing to cry in front of someone. T saw me cry once, that was so debasing and humiliating for me. I cry when I get so angry and frustrated and feel impotent and powerless and am deeply ashamed. Not a series of feelings I want to experience, especially with witnesses.

I have huge issues feeling and expressing emotions, but I have to keep a tight reign on myself or I feel puny and weak. Being in control outweighs touchy-feely for me.