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Old Mar 15, 2015, 07:02 AM
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Astreia Astreia is offline
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Originally Posted by basty_407 View Post
Ever since my teen-age years, i've always known i've got a weird, awkward personality. I was never, ever comfortable being gay. So I was so happy to have met someone whom I was able to share my life with. 8 years we were together. But we recently broke up, and I feel like I'm so alone and unlovable. I'm too ugly to find someone to love me again. And i don't have any friends because i don't know how to sustain a friendship. Being alone is too much. I constantly think of killing myself, but the catholic in me prevents me from pushing through with it. But I can't help but keep hating God for making me the way I am.
Thank God for the catholic in you!!! I have felt suicidal nearly all my 63 years, and I still think about death a lot. But I have made many troublesome attempts, and I don't try it anymore...i just can't die until it is time. I think neither can you. And you can't possibly be as ugly as you say you are...it's a symptom, not a part of you.