That's interesting. I didn't think we needed a poster's permission to post in reply to questions. Your replies to answers to YOUR questions is quite hostile. You might consider working on that.

Are you in therapy? I ask, because you would probably most benefit at this point from working with a therapist who can see you long-term, help you figure out what is going on with you behaviorally and mentally, and work with you on developing coping skills and skills in interpersonal relationships. That would probably be as helpful or probably even more helpful than trying to find a diagnosis because a diagnosis really won't get you far in dealing with your symptoms. The progress will mostly need to be made within yourself and often is most beneficial if you have a qualified therapist to help you through that process.