I despair of ever being in a place where my today isn't ruined by my yesterday. The more I see the past effecting my today the more I despair of ever getting past them.

What if all you've ever known is trauma and neglect of some sort or another? what if you have no safe self to look back on? what if you've never had a safe responsible adult in your life to reflect back too?

How can one keep going on and on when they are beaten time after time by the past?