It sure will. I get it. I've always ended up either totally withdrawing (like you have) or trying to not do that... and then it backfires and I'm a clingy wreck.

He was taking care of himself emotionally when he didn't want to have a break-up talk after breaking-up. It's different than having a conversation involving trying again.

Either way... yeah, it's all awkward and none of it's easy. I honestly wouldn't know how to handle myself (as I never have managed it well in the past) but I find it helps (after the hurt) to recognize where things were decided that were my decisions.

It's why I wanted to point out that it was your decision to end things and cut off contact - he didn't reject you. You rejected him. I always get caught in stupid loops that don't make sense, and as painful as it is I find I can move forwards best once I own and accept my choices, even if it turns out that I regret them horribly and think I'm a terrible person for having made them. It helps remind me that I wasn't rejected - that I did the rejecting. Sometimes it's hard for me to remember and tell the difference.

I really don't know if what I said made any sense. :S