Thanks for all the suggestions. I've been doing the loner thing for so long it feels like home. Recent events made years of hanging in the shadows very painful. Its weird because you turn your head like a curious dog when other people talk about relationships. I've had a few short liaisons but nothing long term. I remember listening to this physicists talk about how you might be the only real thing in the universe and everything around you might be staged just for you. Jesus I hope not because that would make all this a sad monumental underachievement . Peace.