I am so glad that you made it home without drinking. Please reach out to the crisis team if you need to do so. T can work it out on his own.. plus he's leaving them anyway, right?

It will not last forever. I remember when I felt like it would. I think waiting for the end date was almost worse than officially being done. At least at that point I knew I'd hit the final low, and that my healing had begun. Plus I think some level of numbness took over once it actually happened. That was a welcome relief.

I can tell that you are really trying to work through this. I hope are you not pushing yourself too hard to be strong about this. It is great you are trying to make the best of this and use it in a positive way. That speaks volumes about your strength and potential to heal.

It is perfectly normal to be upset about this. It is difficult. It is painful. It is unfair. It is sad. It sucks. Keep posting.