ragsnfeathers, not at all hijacking. I needed to feel that there are others out there who feel this way too. I am in need of understanding what I need in my life to get by and a couch would be nice but she doesn't have on and am afraid to ask for one and in my first post I fear to ask for a hug because I don't want to creep her out and transfer me to another therapist. There I go rambling again, sorry for that and thank you for the comments the insight is very helpful.