(((thepterodactyl)))
I am sorry that you are feeling really held back and that you feel like you struggle 90% of the time.
Yes, I see how this would make what you present to others in a way that does not match up with how you want to be.
Not talking about your ideas because you are anxious must be painful.
These forums may be of interest to you:
Coping with Emotions - Forums at Psych Central
Anxiety, Panic and Phobias - Forums at Psych Central
http://forums.psychcentral.com/anxie...ours-here.html
Steps to Better Self-Esteem - Forums at Psych Central