Hey Deershire, sounds like you want the comfort of someone you can talk to. That is so okay here on Psych Central (PC). Just to tell your story can be a comfort.

I have had some tough times I went through and it was worse when I was eating too little or not at all. Good food helped me keep grounded.

Maybe your boyfriend is not the one to talk to about this anyway. Sometimes that just makes for more frustration on both sides. He just wants to hug you and you try and tell him things he does not understand.

Do you have options available for a therapist or a psychiatrist that can prescribe meds? Many people here at PC get relief from those.

Some people find the forums give them the compassion and empathy they seek. http://forums.psychcentral.com

There are articles that go into more detail about coping
Psych Central - Trusted mental health, depression, bipolar, ADHD & psychology information.

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