Good suggestions and thanks. I've kinda been going through life thinking that better things are just around the corner. I guess that I would like to encourage any young person who is in a similar position that you make an effort now. Time goes by fast and don't let yourself be looking back into empty space. I keep forgetting where I am in life and things like family and growing old with someone are really not there anymore. I find myself looking at young couples in envy - I will never be there. So the violins play, I dance alone, there are paintings to complete and vivid cerebral displays to be had. Again, don't wait.