Welcome to Psych Central (PC) pinkflower. You are remarkable individual to persist through all these adversities and complete medical school and residency. I just want to applaud your fortitude and courage.

Sorry to hear you have experienced eating disorders along with all the other ailments you are facing. Since you are a doctor, maybe there are ways you could help people online with facing challenging situations. One of the sponsors of Psych Central is an online ask the doctor a question site. Of course, I would never give up the hope that you could get better and work in the field of medicine, but at the same time I would say that even if you must endure your current condition you can still help people.

If it is possible to get a therapist that specializes in overcoming disabilities, that could help sort things out. A psychiatrist could also help diagnose any conditions that may be leading to eating disorder and prescribe meds to help.

Some people find the forums give them the compassion and empathy they seek. http://forums.psychcentral.com

There are articles that go into more detail about coping
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