I'm just getting over a relationship that was about 2 years long and that was the longest relationship I've ever been in. (I'm just not very social, and I don't like committing.) I can relate to how you're feeling. During that relationship I gained about 100 lbs due to the bipolar meds I got started on and now I feel like I will never date again because I'm too fat and ugly. But I have to remind myself that that isn't true. If it happened once it can happen again. I just have to get through the depression that comes with a breakup (I was fairly depressed well before the breakup too but that's that's just the bipolar) and work on myself so I can get back to a place where I love myself enough to be loved again.

I found that when I was at my lowest weight from a successful diet and was putting on makeup every day and doing my hair and actually cared about myself and wasn't depressed I had good self esteem and it suddenly became easier than ever to date. Opportunities just appeared out of nowhere. You can get there too, and so can I. We have to believe. You don't have to be "model beautiful" to find love. And as for the "awkward personality" thing, I have a totally awkward personality too. It's all about self esteem.