Ok, I know I've posted something like this but not exactly like this before but I want to know the opinions of other people who may be in this situation. I have a female therapist and I am a man. I am 38 and she is 30. I don't think of her in a sexual way or anything. But I keep having these thoughts, I call them hero syndrome thoughts, not anything illegal but something along the lines of being a rescuer. I would think of a situation that causes great stress or trouble for my therapist and then I would show up and feel that I was saving her. I would then hold her and she would hold me. I would feel that I did a good thing by helping her. The other issue is that I need security and nurturing in my sessions. I keep thinking about a situation of bursting into tears and my therapist says "hey come here let me give you a hug and then she comforts me until I feel better. She wraps her arms around me and rubs the top of my head and tells me that I will be ok. She rocks a little and rests her chin on my head. In this dream or vision or whatever I am secure. I am held. I feel like an infant to a mother when I am scared. I just need to know why this is happening and is it ok to want that nurturing feeling and caring? It is not sexual or relationship based at all I just would like to get your thoughts on this subject, thanks guys.
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