If you haven't heard of Kratom it's a plant and its leaves get ground up into a powder that can be made into a tea or if you're hardcore you can just dump the powder in your mouth and swallow it with water (that's what I do).

It has a high that people compare to opioids, but to me it's not really like that. For me it's just something that helps ease my social anxiety so I can have a smoother day socially. If I don't take it, I end up having an awful day.

The problem is, I blow 50$ a week on it, and I don't make very much money. That's 200$ a month. That's more than half of my rent. The other problem is I just got started on metformin, which makes me nauseous and makes me not want to eat in the mornings, so I end up taking the metformin and the kratom together and I vomit sometimes, because they do not mix well.

I don't take it on the weekends, just weekdays (kind of opposite of what you would think). I don't know if I'm physically dependent on it or not, or if that's even possible, but I definitely depend on it to get through the work week emotionally. I've been in a depression for the entire 8 months I've been working at my current job and I feel like Kratom is basically the only thing keeping me afloat. I don't hate my job, but it is stressful and emotionally and socially demanding; two areas where my stores are generally pretty depleted.

I've cut back by about a 1/3 in the last two months but I don't want to quit. Or at least I don't think I can quit. But I feel ridiculous vomiting at work sometimes (I have to take metformin again at work and I dose Kratom throughout the day), and spending so much money. I don't really know what I should do.

I should mention Kratom is totally legal. The store I get it from is like a mile from my house (which really doesn't help matters).