My problem isn't shyness because I got over that a few years ago. However, I realized I am still an introvert, even though I am friendly because I get overwhelmed when I am around too many people for too long of a time and I have meltdowns.

I have no problem to talking to people there that I like. It was just that going to meetings everyday was upsetting me and overwhelming me. At that particular group there was a lot of drama, some of which included me and I didn't want to be involved in that. I did drop back to 3-4 meetings per week which helped. But there are still some toxic people that keep trying to draw me back into their drama and I want nothing to do with them. I do not want them in my life. I do not wish to speak to them ever and I don't want them speaking to me, PERIOD. I have decided to go to different meetings at a different location with different people.

My problems with AA contributed to my current situation. I still want to be in the program because I need a reminder that I cannot drink and I also want to continue working the steps when I'm ready.