Petunia, No it was fine you sharing some of your story...it helps so much just knowing others understand this!

Thanks Fuzzy!

Its strange, I sat down this evening and watched my daughters just taking for granted their safety, their home, their life and I felt so glad that they are free to do so. But also amazed that for some their life is just like that, "normalish" It helped ground me a bit, I realised yet again, that no one can actually see whats going on inside of me and to them, I just appear normal, mum, their safety net. Somehow that helped me tonight.