Let me start off by saying that I've seen my T for six years. He's done a fantastic job and I've really appreciated his time and patience with me. He's incredibly accepting, he's helped me push forward during some difficult times, and I think I'm better off having seen him.

Recently, however, I was placed in patient. I don't disagree logically with his decision - emotionally, well that's different and it's really not relevant. I have an issue where I'm very controlled with my emotions. If I don't think my emotions are "right", I'll stuff it down with a "it's not important". He's been trying to get me to open up on things.

Well, I've been doing that with my emotions regarding IP. There's a situation, again a long story, and I realized yesterday that I was angry with him for how he handled it. The result of the situation has caused me some emotional distress. As I said, I tamp down my emotions so I didn't realize I was angry...

I think I ought to say something. I wrote a letter because I didn't even want to send an email. I don't want to call. In fact, I want to cancel because he's been really phenomenal doing some extra effort to get me into a research clinic and I mean going all out.

I feel like I should just get over it.

And yet it really, really hurt. And he's always telling me that I shouldn't dismiss my emotions with a "it's not important".

How has it gone for those of you with great Ts? Have you found it helpful to talk it out? I just think - well what is he going to do it about now?? And I don't even know that I care about an apology or anything. I just *feel* this emotion and I don't like feeling it and I guess I'm trying to figure out if the right thing to do is to talk to him.

I think it might be because of how he's encouraged me in the past... but still I don't want to. I have a lot of respect for him