Mate, I feel your pain. I abused painkillers and sleeping tablets for years, trying to dull the pain of my OCD and depression.

I have stopped taking these drugs and have been free for a month (35 days, to be exact).

But I don't have any magical words to say and I can't suggest a miracle cure. Panic attacks are brutal and coping with multiple attacks a day can be cruel.

When all is said and done, we continue living every day because we have hope, hope that better times will come, hope that we can learn to cope better. Don't let go of that hope. When your pain is the most raw, hope can be all you have.

With the right treatment, you WILL learn to live a normal life. Definitely, absolutely, positively.

Just never let go of your hope.