Thanks. I struggle so hard with trying to express an emotion when I've judged it "wrong" - even now when I imagine myself talking it out with him (aka coping ahead), I immediately hear my inner voice say, "It's not important. Just deal with it."

He really did hurt me even if I know it was unintentional. I guess I feel lame for even feeling hurt... and then I try to remember that I was especially vulnerable which is why I ended up inpatient as it was. *sigh*