hi nona,

yes jj did mention you, but only said that there was someone in your circle who didn't want to have a name, so she went by no name and then shortened it to nona. she also said that you are her friend, and you help her out. i think jj cares about you. i already knew about you, though, because i read your other post and responded to it. maybe i shouldn't have asked jj to talk to you, but i just wanted you to know that you can talk here, too, because we're all here to help in this forum. and we do know what it's like to want to hurt your body, and how hard it is to stop.

here are some other things to think about. if you don't feel safe about it, you definitely do not have to answer these questions here. just think about them in your mind. i don't want to make you uncomfortable by asking a lot of questions. and i also want you to try to be safe, and not si anymore. so please be careful when you read this, and think about it, ok?

i can understand your decision to not take time, so that you don't end up hurting the body. maybe it is the best solution there is, for now. i don't know.

have you ever thought about why it is that you si? sometimes that helps to work through it. i know si is your job in your circle, but do you understand WHY it's your job? are you trying to protect yourself and the others from hard feelings, or stop someone from talking about painful things? if not, what is your goal? it might take some thinking for you to be able to answer that. you might not have thought about it before. i know with my own si, sometimes i have a hard time understanding why i do it. there is a lot that goes into it. if you do figure out some of this stuff, and you haven't already, maybe you could write a note to your T about what you've decided and he can help some more then.

yes, i do other things, not just si. do you have any other jobs? i'm not in a circle or system myself, i'm alone inside. so i do everything.

i understand if you don't want to post. i just asked jj to talk to you because i wanted you to know that you are invited and welcome to post, if you do ever want to. i hope that reading here helps you out.

take care, ok?
Angela