I'm a young working mom who had a prescription for a good 10 years. By the time I stopped taking anything, I was on 70 mg vyvanse daily. I stopped taking any kind of medication for the duration of my pregnancy & then for the 5 months I breast fed. One day I needed a pick me up & it's been a daily struggle since. I don't want to get help because doing so would likely result in the loss of my job. Not to mention the thought of leaving my child for 30+ days literally makes me nauseous. I've never gone even 12 hours without her! Anyway. I've noticed steady increases in my tolerance & I've researched ways to lessen my tolerance to no avail. My question is this: is it ever okay to be an addict? Say I only take my prescribed dose daily. Is it okay to know I'm addicted & don't properly function without my adderall? Or will I eventually lose control of my addiction? I'm not ready to give my pills up but I'm not ready to lose my child or myself either.