I honestly have no motivation to do anything. Like I should be really really overwhelmed right now but I'm not. It's like I threw out my feelings. I'm not doing that great in class; my marks are dropping like crazy (near failing) and it's like i don't give a shït anymore or something. I know I probably should be having a mental breakdown right now or something (like I did last semester, but I'm not). I have like no mood/emotion (and i don't know if that's even a good thing); it's like as if I blocked out my feelings or something (maybe the word for it is numb but idk)

I have no motivation to do anything. I failed my math test with a 30% (need a 50% to pass.... so now my average is a 51% in that class) and I have another math test coming up and I honestly don't know what's going on and I have no motivation to do my homework or figure what is going on. I procrastinate for hours. I don't wanna do anything.

Like I don't know what I'm doing. I just want to pass but my motivation is so down I don't want to anything. All I do is procratinate and I don't want to do anything. Yes I realize I can't pass if I don't do anything and that nothing is going to "magically" fall in place for me. I don't know... I'm just screwing myself up :/ Just have no motivation. Ugh I knew I should've dropped out of school when I still had the chance