So this is a random topic but I'm currently torn in making a major life decision & would really appreciate any opinions and advice to help me feel more at peace and sure of the decision I make. Okay, I'll try to get straight to the point without going on for too long. 3 years ago when I moved into my first apartment I adopted a rescue pit bull to keep me company and feel safe at night living alone (always been a dog owner entire life and pit bull lover because of misunderstood discrimination of breed) so in love with this dog-Cali. She's become my new best friend/running partner/car buddy/bed cuddler etc. never ever aggressive towards humans whatsoever, gentle with kids and babies 100% trust except with other large intimidating dogs. About 6 months ago I took in another pit bull puppy off the streets. Cali enjoyed the new play mate at first but now puppy's full grown (Nala) and Cali gets more and more jealous of her even though I'm always careful to greet, feed and pet Cali first but it's never enough. Nala will initiate playtime but Cali turns an innocent game of "Nip-at-legs" into a blood-drawing death match! Cali is much larger than Nala and much stronger. This past week my Mom came over to visit and for some reason her knocking on the door triggered Cali to attack Nala by the neck attempting and almost succeeding in killing her! Luckily my Mom was able to help me break up the fight but they were both covered head to toe in blood along with my carpet, bed and apartment walls! This happened for the third time this week (triggered by the apartment maintenance knocking at my door) this time I was alone and was somehow miraculously able to pull Cali off of Nala's blood-soaked neck but at some point during my attempt, Cali reached back and bit my upper arm. I have no recollection of this happening-being in complete shock and denial and didn't feel any pain or even notice until later-I guess due to my adrenaline pumping full throttle! I could tell from the 2 holes on opposite sides of my bicep that her jaws had completely surrounded my arm and judging by the depth of the holes it had to have been her back K9 teeth that punctured all the way through my muscle tissue, covered in purplish bruises instantly, also leaving my whole arm sore and useless for 3 days. I blame myself for bringing a new young pup into Cali's home and territory knowing how jealous and possessive she is of my attention and affection! My Mother is insistent that I have Cali "humanly euthanized" but I just can't bring myself to do it! I've had her for 3 years now and I love her unconditionally! And I know re-homing her isn't an option because she's already so attached to me as am I to her plus the possible aggression issues. I have always felt that she is more a child to me than a dog, and I already have the same bond with Nala! So giving her up is not an option. Am I crazy??? Honest opinions/advice much needed and appreciated PLEASE!!! (I won't be offended)
-PitifulPitBullProblems [emoji174] [emoji174] [emoji174]