I'm a little better now I'm out of the mixed bipolar phase depression and mania lashing out and crying all at the same time throwing my wallet and phone it was bad guys.. None of my medicne works Effexor makes me worse and paranoid my life feels like it's over
but my son is sound asleep right now so that's good I feel so betrayed Ive never been to a hospital before I don't want people to know I'm bipolar my husband said he recorded me being suicial and threatened to put it on Facebook for everyone to see that time that I was and was crying and stuff having a mental breakdown what kind of husband threatens to do that I try so hard to be a good mom and wife it'd hard living with bipolar and on top of that I'm trying to take care of my son all alone while I have the flu and my husband has slipped disks in his back so we both are not doing good it's a bad situation i just feel so alone I don't know how anyone controls themselves like that it's like its a different person it wasn't me idk who that was but idk how to live like this and take care of my son and family maybe we do need a divorce maybe they need to leave me bc I'm bipolar I hate you bipolar who could ever love someone Ike me who had two personalities and sides and constantly struggling and going through breakdowns nobody.. You can't love something you can't control its destroying everything.. If he put that on fb everyone will know I was suicial and paranoid at one point in my life I feel so betrayed he makes my bipolar worse and he just wants to argue with me when I need space and time to myself he does the worst possibly things and says the worst things to me while I'm in a mixed phase I need a calm controlled understanding husband who gives me a second to breathe and heal and he lashes out and says horrible things causing me to go ballistic