SKY!

Oh dear. What an awful situation!

First of all, you can be loved, and you deserve to be loved! It is very challenging to be with a bipolar person, but it is not impossible. We have to take responsibility for the hardship and heartache we cause at times, but our partners are responsible to us to support us, manage the difficulties, AND benefit from the upshots of us bipolars! We are fun and wild an imaginative, and feel things so deeply, and that is a gift, though it exacts a heavy price, for sure.

I have often felt totally unsupported by my wife. There are times when I know I'm going to snap, I am really triggered by being spoken to in harsh tones of voice, and she'll be mad at me about something, and I'll tell her I am on the verge of a dark place, that I need a break from the conversation or I will snap, and she just can't give me a break, and she pushes and pushes and pushes and I snap, and it is not pretty. And I feel this is so unfair, I am acknowledging that I am bipolar, and that I just need a bit of time to regroup, and she refuses to give it to me, causing me incredible pain and trouble, it just doesn't seem right!

Anyhow, I know a bit about how you feel, and wanted to chime in on this thread.
I hope you are well, hang in!
MT