Thanks Partless.

I hope for a lot, but expect only that he will try his very best to help me to process this loss, and terminate without to much hurt being experienced. I predict he will say that he does not keep in touch after termination. I don't expect that he will hold my hand, I have told him for 2+ years to stay the heck away from me on the other side of the room.......and of course I would like a hug goodbye, but I deleted that question. I could not ask for that.

I just can not be left without a new therapist......that would be bad at this point.

I hope it doesn't end badly......... .......well, I mean, it is bad already. I hope it doesn't end even worse.......

(Why hasn't he replied???)