Just a little insight into this situation before I begin. Doctor help is not an option, as I do not have the money for insurance or yet another bill. Any other helpful tips are welcome. Any help is very appreciated.

I’ve been dealing with genetic hip problems since high school and have had autistic tendencies (mainly sensory overload, social anxiety, and general anxiety, although other symptoms do crop up every once in a while) since I was very little. I was never actually diagnosed, so as of now, all we can do is guess that’s what’s going on. Depression comes and goes, just like the hip pain. I’ve learned to repress the bad thoughts and just let them fizzle out. It normally works well. Not recently. My sensory overload has been getting worse, and I’ve even been having panic attacks at work, which frustrates me to no end, because I’ve worked SO HARD to keep them in. I was okay with it and dealt with it until I started snapping at people for picking at my issues. I don’t care that they were picking at me, I really don’t, but for some reason, I just snapped. Stuff like this could get me fired. I just don’t feel like I’m good enough for this job due to my hips not allowing me to work as quick as i’m needed to be and thoughts like that have brought me down into the “pit of despair” before (suicidal thoughts, self harm). I don’t want to go back to that. I REALLY don’t want to go back to that...