I don't know. None of what you two are saying is reassuring me.

There's a few factors going against your optimism. I would have to explain everything, including the information he shared with me. That's going to be walls and walls of text that I don't feel comfortable sharing on here.

Panda, it's since Saturday. So by the time his birthday comes it will have been 10 days. I just think that is too long to go without making contact. In a few days he could be over me, if not already. I know it comes with the personality disorder to be pessimistic and instantly jump to the worst case scenario...but trying to be positive and create an imaginary image in my head of optimism is going to make me more sad about missing him.