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Mar 16, 2015, 08:13 AM
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Member Since: Feb 2015
Location: Eastern US
Posts: 472
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Originally Posted by Scottiedog
Hi. I'm not sure I should be posting here or not. Don't really know if I have a problem. I had bulimia for about 9 years and have been more or less fine for about 12 years. Lately I have found myself obsessing again. I weigh myself several times a day. I think constantly about food and calorie count or point everything. I am back to not eating in public and feeling if I am seen eating people will b thinking no wonder she is so fat. The number on the scales determines my mood for the day. Am I heading for a relapse? I really don't think I would ever make myself sick again but I hate that the other stuff is rearing its head. I have a .GP appt coming up for somethingdifferent and don't know whether to mention this or not.
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Some of the things you say scare me. They're things that I usually start doing again when I'm heading for a relapse - weighing multiple times/day, not eating in public, obsessing over calorie counts, basing your day on the number on the scale etc. You've come a long, long way. 12 years is amazing. I wouldn't want to see you back where you started. And I'm guessing you don't want to go through the whole recovery process again. I would definitely tell your GP. Could you maybe write it down? Like write down a list of concerns; like 1) migraine meds refilled 2) concerned about eating disorder returning 3) whatever else you have going on etc. And then just hand your GP the list saying "this is what I need to discuss today". She should take it from there and that way maybe you won't feel as awkward about it. I don't know, just an idea...
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