I know EXACTLY how you feel!!!! I'm in school going through the same thing. The thing is, I've been feeling this way for years! I wanted to give up last year, but was talked out of it. Now I'm thinking I should've just quit while I was ahead!
The problem is that it's really hard to reach out to people. Who can you find to give you a pep talk when you can't get "it" together enough to do homework? Most people I know don't want or know how to deal with you and your depression! Some professors are understanding and will work with you. But most will tell you to drop the class and take it again when you get "it" together! Or say something like: "oh, well; do the best you can."
I don't know if I'm going to keep trying. I've been applying for administrative jobs like crazy! If I get hired, I'm done with school for a while.
I suppose if you can get a job, try going to school later. A regular Monday through Friday job may provide the routine that we both need!! Let me know how things go.
asiriusBee
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Originally Posted by bubbles00
I honestly have no motivation to do anything. Like I should be really really overwhelmed right now but I'm not. It's like I threw out my feelings. I'm not doing that great in class; my marks are dropping like crazy (near failing) and it's like i don't give a shït anymore or something. I know I probably should be having a mental breakdown right now or something (like I did last semester, but I'm not). I have like no mood/emotion (and i don't know if that's even a good thing); it's like as if I blocked out my feelings or something (maybe the word for it is numb but idk)
I have no motivation to do anything. I failed my math test with a 30% (need a 50% to pass.... so now my average is a 51% in that class) and I have another math test coming up and I honestly don't know what's going on and I have no motivation to do my homework or figure what is going on. I procrastinate for hours. I don't wanna do anything.
Like I don't know what I'm doing. I just want to pass but my motivation is so down I don't want to anything. All I do is procratinate and I don't want to do anything. Yes I realize I can't pass if I don't do anything and that nothing is going to "magically" fall in place for me. I don't know... I'm just screwing myself up :/ Just have no motivation. Ugh I knew I should've dropped out of school when I still had the chance  |