It sounds to me like you have alot of feelings percolating within you and you have much much much to discuss.

I think that you may get more responses (even from me tomorrow... time for bed..) but you are still quite early in the therapeutic process and alot of what you say are things that I felt and many others here will concur.

You might even consider taking what you just wrote into therapy or break it down as you write to him or journal as you have much going on... as far as I can tell...an awful lot of loss right now. Maybe hard to express feelings about just losses??