Dear T (MC), I'm sorry for leaving you a weepy rambling voicemail today after our session. I know I seemed mostly fine in the session with my husband, but the fact that you seem reluctant to have another individual session with me to discuss transference issues really triggered my fears of rejection (OK, I told you that part in the message, so I probably don't need to be posting it here). But it's really scary to me, the way stuff with you brings up those feelings. You know all about transference, you should realize that. I know you're worried about boundaries and all that, and think it's better if I discuss it either with my individual T or with you in front of my husband.

But I just feel this need to talk to you by myself about it. Yes, it's partly because you're good at "holding me from across the room." Maybe that seems like the wrong reason to be seeking it from you. But I feel like a little girl right now.

I know it may not seem appropriate since you're my MC or you feel like I should be handling it in a different way. But I need you, OK? I ******* need you. Please help me through this. Please?