So I had my last appt today & I survived. No tears, no breakdowns no regrets!
I kno some posters were asking about the bdsm issue.
Lickityspljt is right. My T told me she has issues w/me going down this path & also the infidelity to my H & family. I did post about it in a previous thread saying I felt judged.

A T that was familiar w/ the lifestyle would be great, but there's few & far between. I talked to my T about having serious issues w/subdrop. She asked ME what that was. So I kind of explained, but I'm not 100% sure. I just know it's bad. The next wk I brought it up again just hoping she maybe read alittle bit about it so she could understand it & help me. She breezed right over it. My choices in my life has changed our T dynamic & I don't feel like it's the same.

She was nice during the appt. Asked me what I've learned about myself. Where she sees that I've improved since coming in. We didn't go over anything although she asked about my H again. Of course nothing else about my other relationships.
I thanked her, said I learned a lot about myself & feel pretty good (ok that was the only lie). But she did tell me that if I'm terminating & wanto come back that I'd go on the wait list like other new clients. I guess I understand that....I think.

So thanks to everyone & their advice. I really hope I've made the right decision & can finally stand on my own w/o being attacked from my past. Thank you