There is a light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes it seems the light is so far in the distance you will never reach it. Ill comment on what you said about meds first. If you are a zombie, you are over medicated. Or it could be that you aren't used to the way you feel on meds as opposed to the chaos that is bipolar. I'll tell you from personal experience that I was never a zombie on the right meds. It was the meds that were wrong that made me crash. As far as relationships, given the right relationship it can work. But what it takes is work on both your part and hers. You have to be able to show that you are doing everything you can to better yourself and cope with your illnesses, but on that same note, your other half needs to be able to educate herself on the illness you have and what you go through. Only then will she be able to support you 100%.